Last night, I was feeling down after practice when Ben sent me a timely message to remind me to hang in there. Sometimes it's just so easy to feel like throwing in the towel and say you wanna quit everything but in actual fact, you've just got to make so many considerations.
All these music activities, orchestra, piano/double bass lessons...Sure it's nice, i do enjoy it but once in awhile I just ask myself, why am I in it and i realise that i don't really know The past 6 years have been really fun because i had you guys with me. Now that I am there alone and in the hot seat and it just takes the joy out of every practice. I don't want the position, i just want to be part of the section and enjoy the music made. But now i've got to make decisions and considerations and i just don't like it at all.

Perhaps we haven't talked in awhile, but if any of you read this, I miss every single one of you so much. All these Thursdays and Saturdays have become so monotonous to me.

I can't wait for the year to be over.